| So here's a note from me to everyone else...getting your tonsils out sucks...alot. So I definitely haven't posted in about a month so what to say...
All I did most of July was work. And no, I'm not rich so go figure. I spent most weekends at the cabin because hey, it's amazing and where would I rather be? I never get to spend time up there so that was lovely. I haven't really seen much of anyone but you know,that's life. I got my tonsils removed last thursday and since have been at home and mostly miserable. It hurts and I'm not allowed to do anything..Day 1 and 2 weren't tooo bad but day 3 was the worst...try throwing up but having open wounds in your throat. Gross? Yes. Painful? Definitely. And I can't really eat so it's drink drink drink. Which hurts. And everyone's all "Ice Cream!". Ice cream coats your throat and makes it feel milky and shitty. But you can't phlegm it out cuz that hurts...so you drink it down with water. All in all, not a very pleasant experience but you know, whatevs. Hopefully I won't get sick anymore and I'll get better in the next little while. The whole "not talking" thing is brutal tho.
I have my roadtest in 2 weeks. August 12th. Then I'll be a big boy and have a license hopefully. Other than that...no shows, no sports, no girls so it's just me and the sunshine(which I'm not allowed to be in yet). Thanks to everyone for the good wishes and the get-wells! I'm gonna go lay down. | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment   |
| Foolish Faces
We live a life of anger, We live a life of joy;
We live our lives pretending to be a different girl or boy.
To some we bring a smile, a wink, a laughter to their soul;
Others know the sage advice that makes a problem whole.
A mask to hide our nature, our questions deep within;
A mask that keeps the truth away and the hurt from coming in.
Who are we as people? As children, young and old;
When we can’t even find the strength to let our tales be told.
Instead we continue in our ways, acting our way through
I wish I you knew what makes me me…
And I wish I knew the real you… | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| this is a post I put on my dande.net website:
"I don't even know where to start. My mind is muddled. dande started for me as something Der and Erv were doing, Josh was doing, etc. I'm not sure why you guys let me into the exclusive membership but you did and it's something I continue to be proud of, even if it's weeks between posts and what not. It allowed to become closer to some guys who I hadn't necessarily been good friends with before and I realize howm uch I was missing out on. Me and Der, retreat chat '03 sums it up. Remember that buddy? I do.
1994: My wrestling love was tempered. I played the games and watched the shows but I was also doing a million other sports and stuff and it was never an obsession. when I was 10/11 I was super hyper kid, alwasy running and jumping around, usually with my other half/twin brother. I feel sorry for my moms, we were hellacious. Not that we did anything bad, we were just all over the place, all the time. Soccer practice, basketball game, track meet, scouts. Anything and everything you can think of, I did. And moms drove me. And I remember back then telling my mom I wanted to be an actor. I wanted to act and sing and dance. And she always told me " you don't have time, when you're older maybe" And I thought no more of it.
1997-98: Grade 7 was a tough year. I started to feel different, isolated from my classmates. I didn't know why. I still played a hundred sports. Basketball, soccer, golf, volleyball, track, badminton, floor hockey, cross country etc...looking back now I don't even know how I did it all. But there's an incident I remember. Our school put on a Passion play(story of Jesus' last 2 days and ressurection). It was a musical...man was I excited. I just knew I was gonna play the role of Jesus, I just KNEW it. Auditioned, had a good one. But my voice was changing. I was losing the super high, little kid pitch that was necessary to sing some of Jesus' songs. So my music teacher called me one night and asked if I would mind playing the role of Herod. I'm a team player so I said, sure why not? A non singing, 2 line role. I didn't realize how much I loved theatre until I was so devestated that I wasn't Jesus...but I was a damn good Herod.
High School High: I didn't even take drama 8, I don't know why. maybe I was still bitter, told myself I didn't wanna act. Took Drama 9, that was a waste of time. Sang in the choir for 4 years. Meanwhile, my twin is immersing himself in the arts program at Carney. Kick-ass choirs, and in gr.11 he played Prince Charming in their musical Cinderella. Obviosuly I was jealous but he was fantastic. I was so busy doing everything I could at STM I decided it wasn't a big deal. so...no acting in high school.
Post: I finally got a chance to do a show the summer after grad. I did Les Miserables and it was fantastic. I decided this was something I wanted to do. so I auditioned for an agent and they told me to take some acting lessons, etc. Fantastic. Now Tim went to the Cap Theatre Program straight out of high school and was doing musicals and stuff so I decided I would be different and concentrate on straight acting. I took acting classes, loved them but I couldn't afford them or make the time commitment so I told myself I wasn't sure it was what I wanted to do...did a community play at the Cultch. Then kind of dropped it altogether for awhile. Did another run of Les Miserables in the summer. Took a year off school and just worked...hated it. Tried to go back to acting school...didn't feel. Finally I figured out then I needed to be singing and dancing and performing. So I auditioned for the musical theatre program at Cap College. and I got in. So starting in Septemeber, I think I'm gonna finally be doing what I WANT to do. so wish me luck :)" | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| So Watts is away...not sure what that has to do with anything, just thought I'd mention it. SPence had surgery, I hope you get better quick buddy. Stef still hates work. Nadine's graduating. Jill is probably busy working and being in love. Liz is still working on schoolio..and being in love. Am I missing anyone?
I'm just working. That is all...no soccer, no shows, no anything. But I love peaches...they're quite delicious. YEAH they are...mmmmm
PS watch the trailer for the Rent movie, it's AMAZING. November 11th, be in theatres.
http://s44.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3T5R23HJ8RE9Z2N4IM3S416I3O that's the link, cut and paste in your browser! | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | I don't like these moods but I'm deep in one..too much contemplating going on in my head. I just feel like sitting and doing nothing...maybe talking? But i don't know what to talk about anyway sooo...sitting it is. I hope everyone else is good | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | I've been in a weird mood the last coupld days...kind of bitter and i don't know where it comes from. They've been good days...came home from penticton on monday(which was a ridiculous gong show) and went to Ameet's cuz he left for England tuesday...tuesday night we took out the Wattsmeister for her b-day(YUHA! BEEP BEEP)...wednesday hung out with lindsay, went for coffee...mis in work all day during those days. But yet I'm kind of meh. what up with that y'all? Meh, whatevs...I love the ppl I hang out with these days(the list isn't really extensive but oh well) and i'm glad to spend time solo. I'm kind of back to that "I need someone special" stage but if she comes, I won't be ready for her so what's the point? Blarney Stone tom night for Amanda's bday then Sat night it's a music night for the "random acts of art" festival at cap. It starts at 7 in the studio theatre, you should check it out if you have time. Still waiting on cap entrance, I should find out in the next two weeks. yup...that's it...aloha | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "Songs for a New World"....AMAZING!! | | Subject: | Cap Audition | | Time: | 11:17 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/sam/exhausted.gif) exhausted |
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| | It was soo good! :-D I'm really very pleased with it. I killed my monologue and the adjustments they gave me and I did decently on my song and then the dance was super fun! We had to do ballet,tap and jazz and I picked it all up fairly quickly. SO now it's out of my hands, I did my best. I find out end of May/start of June. Other than that, I auditioned for Grease for Theatrix...just cuz...but i'm not sure if I wanna do it or not so we'll see. Depends on the cast and such....so just we'll see... Heading to Penticton this weekend for a soccer tourney, should be drunkfest. I'm excited. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "Yellow Leadbetter"-Pearl Jam | | Subject: | Birthday Extravaganza | | Time: | 07:23 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/sam/hopeful.gif) hopeful |
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| | So it was my birthday on sunday, the big 2-0. Doesn't really feel like a big deal tho. Just another year. Except it kind of puts me in the creepy old guy territory when dealing with high school girls, lol. Saturday night was one of the best nights I've had in a long while tho. Tim and I decided just to celebrate at the Dew, close to home, usually good times. We threw out a general invite, if you wanted to, come party with us...and SO many ppl showed up! It was craziness! I made it through the night this year(lol) tho Tim didn't. But yeah, just an insane, good time with a copious amount of ppl I know. Sunday was a chill day, just our bday and mother's day. Other than that, I audition for Cap on friday! I'm good with my song, I just need to get my monologue down....I'm not QUITE nervous yet but I'll be pretty scared come friday morning(9am? who can perform at 9am?). But yeah, in or out, I'm stoked either way. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I just got back from Osoyoos for a family golf tourney/reunion. It's always nice to see the family. That was fairly fun. For some reason I got sick again the day before we left. Same thing, high fever, puking, sore throat etc. I spent the car ride up puking up nothing and trying to sleep. Fun. I definitely need to go to the doctor to get this thing checked out, it's been 4 or 5 times in under 3 months. Always the same. Super high fever(103-4),sore throat, puking...lasts a couple days then dissapears. It kills my body and I spend a couple weeks recouperating then it happens again. Not to mention my throat. I'm sure I'm permanently damaging my vocal chords. awesome.
other than that,my life is fairly boring, sorry to tell you all. I don't work at AE anymore, I work in a warehouse on Annacis Island picking orders and doing shipping and stuff. I just needed regular hours and decent money so I can save some over the summer. I'm hopefully going back to school in september, I audition for Cap College's Musical Theatre program on May 13th. If I get in, I'll be back in school full time come the fall. I work monday-friday, 8-4:30 everday til the end of August. That's kind of a bummer. I HATE waking up in the morning. But this way I won't blow my money on weekday partying(hopefully). But if there's weekend events, gimme a shout. I'm back to living the solo life and sort of in another revelation period...I hope you all are well .... Other than that, there's not much more to say....Aloha | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| that's a line from a song tim sang at his Cap musical theatre review and it's very thought-provoking. Here's a selection of lyrics:
"In whatever time we have
For as long as we are living
We can face whatever comes
If we face it now as one
I could make it on my own
Now I know that I don't have to
No one really wants to be alone
In whatever time we have
We could live a hundred years
Or the world could end tomorrow
but we know we'll be together
In whatever time ...
From this day forward
Nights won't seem so black
From this day forward
We will never look back
In whatever time we have
We will make the most of time
And at least we'll be together
In whatever time we have"
I'm looking at this in two ways...one the fact that someone reminds us that our time may be limited so what are we doing? And two, the fact that no one wants to be alone, no matter whatever time we may have...I don't but I don't want to waste my time either. I don't know if that sounds shallow or not but if I'm gonna be with someone I want magic and fireworks so I'll know. I want love so I'm happy. Personally I think that's reasonable but who knows how much time we have? What if I die before I know that feeling? Lol, the song brings up contradictions for me.
On Tuesday night Tim had a musical theatre review show for his class...his last musical performance as a Cap Student...I didn't even go there and i was emotional. It was special and it's been an awesome two years getting to consistently watch him perform. He was amazing as were all his classmates. I appreciate those kids' talent. Maybe if I get into Cap you guys'll get to come watch me sometimes! That'd be cool...
I'm feeling thoughtful but I have nothing really profound to say except I feel love and sorrow at the same time...but I don't know the motivation for either...hmm...good nite all | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "Remember when it rained"-Josh Groban | | Subject: | Sure as the morning rain | | Time: | 05:23 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/sam/thoughtful.gif) thoughtful |
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| I don't know what to write about but I felt like posting something. Last night I ended up going to Maverick's with Denis, Ferdi and Ameet...It was a good night, we were all pretty gooned. I feel pretty good this morning tho, except for the fact that my body hurts. I played 5 soccer games yesterday. 7 on 7 full field. No offsides, sub on the fly. It's fun but fast! And we only had 8 guys so one sub. Needless to say, I'm a little sore today.
As for life, i'm pluggin away. Getting used to the 8-4:30 life everyday and just kind of hanging out otherwise. I feel kind of content but I think it's a momentary thing, I have a lot ahead of me but I think I'm putting myself in a good place for it.
LJ dedication 4 the day: Amanda Watson
I don't know if you actually understand what you are Watts. Both to me or to others. You're this unbelievable life source, creative and electric. You have an ability to affect and inspire people with your passion and zeal for life. Your intelligence is astouding and you use it wisely and generously(most of the time:P).I'm so happy that we managed to get over all the bullshit and develop the friendship we have. I admire you as a person and I love you as a friend. I can't wait to see what the future holds for you. If you want to, you can achieve anything and everything and I'll always be here to hold your hand. Thanks for being you | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "Angels Among Us"- Alabama | | Subject: | a world of change | | Time: | 11:03 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/sam/calm.gif) calm |
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| soooooooo... Watts is a very intelligent person and I enjoy her. I'm gonna try and use this journal more as an outlet for my thoughts. How's life lately...? Changing actually. Finally something new! I quit AE(tho I still may stay on and work like, once a month for the discount and so I can go back in sept) and am now working in the warehouse at Natural Color Productions(my dad's company). I'm liking it! It's just me and the warehouse manager all day and I pick orders, set up shipments, take inventory etc. It's a souvenir/calendar/scenic book company by the by. It's good hours(8-4, mon-fri) and I get paid a decent wage. Best of all, I pretty much do my own thing, work at my own pace. So far so good anyway. That's development one.
Development two is that I've decided to go back to school come september. I'm auditioning to be in the musical theatre program at Cap College. No, not the same program as Tim. He took straight Theatre. In this program I'll learn to dance, sing, sight read, play beginner piano, musical theatre history etc. I'm basically sick of not doing anything with my life and I'm pretty positive I'll enjoy this so I'm gonna give it a shot. The plan is the 3-year program at Cap then transfer to SFU or UBC and get my teaching degree...it's a lot of school but I think it'll be worth it.
Other developments...getting back into the single life. That's good and bad I guess. A little of my bad habits are back(the drinking and such) but it's less than last time and now with my early morning work, I don't think it'll be an issue. Also there's the confusion of signals to girls. When you're in a relationship it's as simple as that. "You're cute BUT..I have a gf". Single, not so much. "You're cute BUT...I don't know what I want". That's a downside I suppose. Anyways, all in all, life is fairly good. I like where I'm at and where I'm headed so let's keep our fingers crossed!
Peace and Love kids. Aloha. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| As long as everyone else is updating...
My life is boring these days...I work sometimes but my work is gay and isn't giving me any hours so I need to find a new job...I was dying for a little while but I'm better now...Most recent change to my life is that Hailey and I broke up tonite. It was a mutual thing, we both agreed we're in weird places and we're better off alone. I know it's for the best but it sucks. She's a special girl. It's a weird feeling because it's not like we fought or anything. We've never really had anything but good times we just kinda knew this was the best option... So I dunno...I'm back to being single which in retrospect is nothing new. Just back to the same old I suppose. So in conclusion I'm single, bored and I need a new job. I hope everyone else is alright. Peace and Love kids
PS. Go see Tim in "Into the Woods". He's amazing(as usual) and the show's excellent. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "That's what friends are for"-Dionne Warwick | | Subject: | Stefanie | | Time: | 01:19 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/sam/sad.gif) sympathetic |
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| Stefi-o,
I defintely just read your post so this entry goes to you. I love you and so will everyone reading this agree: I know there's not much to say or do, especially being here but know that we love you and we're here if you ever need anything. The pain must be immense but remember one thing...at the end of the day, there's always a reason to smile ok? Just go out and find it...Love you kiddo.
Dan | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Substantial update huh? freeeeak...ummm In the last little while my life has consisted of work...I was sick for about 2 weeks...Hailey...I dropped Lyric...I think that's about it. Alumni basketball tournament and a couple soccer games scattered throughout.
To explain all that: Work=meh. I had strep throat so I was sick for like a week and a half, just in bed...REALLLY fun. Hailey is amazing and I'm a very lucky man. Lyric, well, it just didn't feel like the right place to be for me. I wasn't excited about it and it was a huge commitment time and money-wise so I decided to was best to drop it. We had an alumni bball tourney at STM, we came 4th. Soccer, we lost our cup game so we're just finishing up league games then I'm done for the year.
Went to visit Spencer and Cheech last night, that was good times! Cheech is awesome Spencer, good work! My hand is savaged from the tree tho :-S
Anywho kids, I must run. work calls...I hope everyone is well and I'll see you all soon! Peace and Love,
Daniel | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | So i have some news to tell you and you probably won't believe me but...I'm not single anymore. I have a girlfriend. That feels weird to type but it's not weird, it's excellent. Her name is Hailey and she's amazing and I'm happy. So I thought I'd just give everyone the heads-up on that front. Any questions may be directed towards me and I can't wait for you all to meet her :-D. Anyways, I'm gonna head out. Peace, love and harmony kids. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "orange Sky"- Alexi Murdoch | | Time: | 03:47 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/sam/silly.gif) giddy |
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| life consists of: a) work which in turn b)pays my bills(some of them) and leaves me c)poor. it's a vicious cycle. but i'm spending my money on lyric which is awesome. I'm so happy to be back. I'm working on research and character and such which I didn't really do before so it's good. Beats spending my money on booze and frivolous things right?
sooo what else...I kind of met this girl. Well, I didn't KIND of meet her, I met her and she's fantastic. Seriously, we spent about 8 hours together and I already am fairly smitten with her. She's smart and we talked for hours about everything. not to mention beautiful and funny...Not to mention we watched Garden State and she loved it and had such insightful things to say about it. And she loves musicals.and she's an athlete....anyways, I'm being pre-mature considering we're 8 hours into our relationship but I thought I'd mention that I'm excited about it. Other than that, I'm just keeping it real y'all. I hope the rest of you are doing the same. Aloha for now | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "high tides, low seas"- Ben Harper, Jack Johnson | | Subject: | 'til the season to change | | Time: | 03:29 pm | | Current Mood: | contemplative |
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| | Merry Christmas to everyone and all the best for 2005! Where did 2004 go? honestly? It boggles my mind...anyways, here's hoping everyone has a fantastic year in 2005. We're coming up onto a crucial point in our lives where we have to self-evaluate and figure who we are and what we're doing. It's tough, trust me I know but it's for the best. So here's to you, whoever you want to be...Cheers! | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | silence | | Subject: | next dedication | | Time: | 01:44 am | | Current Mood: | thoughtful |
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| I've been up and down in the last couple weeks...but steadly keeping up in the last one so hopefully it'll stick...learning lots about me, a little about others. Focusing on me tho...as for others, I figured it was time for another dedication so here goes:
Spencer Snashell:
a paradox of a human being to most, he's really simple at the core. He's sensitive and deep and loving. If you're the same, you'll get along fine. I respect you for the talents you own and the compassion for others you bring to the table. We don't hang out too often but we don't have to. You're always around when needed(if you're not doing your 18 million commitments) and I appreciate it. Be you buddy. Learn and embrace who that is and be true to it. Thanks for everything. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
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You Are a Peacemaker Soul |
You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.
While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.
Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul
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